I just realized that it has been almost two weeks or so since I last wrote a post, and I don’t know, it feels weird.
I’ve been in England these last four days visiting my boyfriend, and I really haven’t been this happy in ages, probably not since November last year.
I don’t really have anything else to say, so I’ll just wrap it up and end it with a sort of poem I wrote on the plane home yesterday evening/night.
(Just for the record; I’m still clean, no harming, I’ve kept the promise to myself, and I hope I can keep it this way.)
Drown your sorrows:
Hurry home, where they are waiting
Those razorblades, now stop resisting
You know you want this,
No doubt in mind
Now drown your sorrows,
Don’t let them behind.
Images like flashing lights
Blinding you, your mind and sight
Sadness is your biggest fright
So drown your sorrows
With me tonight.
What can you do when neither words or actions are enough to prove to someone that you love them, it’s only him or her you want, but they just can’t seem to understand why, what do you do? Keep on telling and showing them? Give up? I don’t know.
I know how hard it is to accept something you don’t understand, you keep wondering why, when you really should just accept it and enjoy every second of it, if it’s a positive thing that is.
I hate what doubt does to you, how it makes you feel, and questions every possible thing in your life, good or/and bad, it never seems satisfied. It’s what makes you unable to accept things the way they are.
When you’ve given all you have and it still isn’t enough, what do you do?
Will the mind ever be satisfied?
One last thing that’s incredibly important when it comes to love; don’t ever try to understand it, just accept it. It makes everything so much easier.