I’m back to square one, majorly depressed, suicidal thoughts and my urges to harm myself are stronger than ever.
So much for thinking that my antidepressants were working.
I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I’m sick of being sad and anxious and most of all, hurting. I can’t strand it.
I don’t know how much longer I can do this. My only options are, to kill myself, call the psychiatrists tomorrow, and hope they can help me, or hurt myself again.
It’s getting harder and harder to resist my blades.
I can’t do this on my own any longer.